Me, MySeLF & I

Hmmm….nothing actually except that working 6 days str8 w.o that ‘colleague’. It seems stress free! Its like i can do what I want w.o being conscious!

The best part we had a confrontation at work and gosh she is superb man! Can twist her tongue like snake or even better?? Right in front, she said I am being sensitive towards her "banging" table because to her is a normal thang? And that her husband always do that at home? EXCUSE ME LADY. its not normal and i guess u r abnormal!!! And its so immature of you to actually follow your husband bad habits! And u got the cheek to defy me when I also said you are sensitive when I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU!!! And u even got the cheeks to imply that everyday I must have my own problems. When I replied to you asking right at your face," Do I need to talk to  u everyday?" Why arent u answering? WHO DO U THINK U R LADY??? Instead u wanna point out all my bad points? U dun even dare face me when u talk! Ur just a piece of SHIT!!! Look at yourself before you point others. If u cant take it that u have bad points, dun live! BLOODY B*TCH!

I swear I dont wanna tok to her EXCEPT for work matters. I was so damn angry that she actually can twist her words. Making things big when in fact is actually a small matter.  and this is from a 40-yr-old MARRIED WOMAN FROM *********!!! Gosh. When it comes to S** stuff, u are not even shy to share with my other colleague! Oh gosh!!! Seriusly..I wanna see how far u can go. U want to BOOTLICK so much….yeah U LICK my BLOODY CUTE ASS 1st orite???? 

Happenning?? kehrkehrk….yeah the engagement of Aiza mah bestie!!! kerhkerhker. It was so funny seeing her crack her silly jokes when wearing that costume. Everyone was like…Aiza…pls..Aiza this ..Aiza that…. Finally she is engaged. And yeah on 27th Rin’s turn and that completes the whole group getting engaged and insyAllah to get married. oh yeah…OOoopsss…exccept for Lisa. InsyAllah Soon eh Lisa. I didnt get to stay long cause I need to go off to send my baju to Geylang. Daddy sends me there. i feel bad not staying long but then time with Daddy is also precious. Sorry Aiza, hope u understand. Bought her the ‘basket’ hehehe…and she likes and bought her vouchers for her belated bday. Cant wait to see the pictures. SO AIZA IS ENGAGED on 060708, nice date!! And babe u still havent answer la…Wedding 10/10/10 kah??? hehehehe

1st July, we got thet GST money right? I was actually telling myself to really cut down on my spenditure to $200 a mth. That of coz minus transport. I have actually calculated and I see the need to really save at times like this where almost everything has increased!! Damn!! I have that sum of money for the wedding but then i just feel its really not enough. In case I have exceeded the amt to prepare for wedding,I betta save up now. So I kept reminding myself each time I wanna spend. Im glad that I dont visit orchards dat much. So me spending on those shops like ZARA, ESPRIT etc is like 5%. And now I mostly shops at LotOne and frequents Cotton On & Bossini. SO when I went to work on Monday, something caught my eye!! Two tops and I just grab it after I tried it on. Pwuuuhh…so much for thinking of saving money yah! Then I saw something which really attract me, a bag from Cotton On $19.95. Fiance has been picking me up from werk these 2 days….so sweet of him. hehehe. I came out from work carrying the Bossini recycle bag of my purchase. He asked," Apa nie?" I grin," Baju…heheeh I beli dua aje. murah (rolls my eyes)." He shook his head. "Beli Beli aje…save la skit," he mumbled. Da mcm my mommy gitu. I just pretend not to hear. We went in Cotton On. I took that bag I saw and then….. he gave me that look. His look says," Buang duit aje.Da banyak beg pun nak beli jugak. Bila pakai beg, semua sampah dia taruk pat dlm."  So i told him if I go to work tmrw and the bag is still there, I will buy. Today came and I completely forgotten but there he was on the phone reminding me, " U trus punch ur card (zaman bila pakai punch, co aku nie ketinggalan zaman). Tak yah beli beg tu. Beli beg tu pun taruk sampah u yang entah apa lah." Then I went,"lah…Alaaaaaa….alllaaaaa…..Cute la you…beg dia tinggi, lengan I yang gemuk nie pun leh masuk." "Suka hati you la duit u," he said. I still make my way to the machine and str8 up to my counter. $19.95….hmmm….forget it la. If my pay day the thing is day, then I buy. HAHAHAHA. what difference does it make? hehehehe.

Today the ex polymates came over my counter and asked me qtns and one of them goes….JAJA, and so i knew they r really from Ngee Ann Poly. There’s 3 of them and I dont remember their name till I smsed Aiza. Ah tan. They r meeting Sharon who has migrated to California?? But till now I havent seen them yet. Neways, this Ah tan used to look like a normal girl with short hair n nerdy specs. Then she permed her hair, and then loves to b bra-less. ekrhekrhkerhker. And I was so shocked to see her now coz I heard she is an air stewardess now. And really her looks changed!!!! And she is thinner than she used to. Make up really do wonders! They left and then my ex colleague from M1 came by. Missed her actually. and till now I have yet to go out with her. And to think she is actually loyal to M1. HAhahaha. Thumbs up gal!! I think I will catch up with u next week or the next week.Still single and the only thing that change is she added another tattoo behind her neck. And then Kak Echa came with Abg Wira…just a salam and balik kul brapa thingy…If my mgr is not there, maybe more can be said. Yeah toking about work, now its getting mundane!!! Having ‘that’ colleague doesnt help either. GOSH! I just wish I can switch to something new….. GOSH!!

OKies i guess its long enuff and I have been typing from 7.30pm till now…tmrw is my dating day. hehehe. I can see my fiance only for these 2 weeks after which he will be at Jurong Island for 3 weeks….. awwwww…….mish mish….. but then…*wink2*. Nah not being nottie…maybe during those weeks I can catch up with ma gerls….and yesh..looking forward to RIN’S ENGAGEMENT & SERI SURI RAM BBQ!!!!

Ola olaaaaaaaaaa……..

1st and for all, I wanna congratulate myself and the rest of the gals of S.S.R for winning 2nd in the recent competition of Layar Citra Dikir 2008. I WILL not forget those times spent during training and on that day itself. Some said to play just for the sake of fun, enjoy. But for me, I would wish to have that last trophy in my hand. And alhamdullilah its beyond my expectations and we won AWOK2 terbaik! Kudos to all. Though there are some ‘mishaps’ during training, we managed to pull thru. Tho with few trainingsand w.o full manpower for training, we still pull thru.

On that day itself, I told myself not to see the SHE-GIANTS as a threat. The words which Kak Sue’s said keep ringing onto my ear. "MAIN DARI HATI. IKHLAS." I guess dats what our shifu had said also. And so when I walked into the room and saw DIAN and heard them…i was liked….woisshhh…..there goes my trophy. Coz i was so fascinated with their intro…. And there Shifu espe was…eh cepat cepat practise intro….Relak ar…ok ok enjoy enjoy, And i was like what da heck..enjoy ar….hahahaha.

and yes on stage i was making mistakes woohoooo…..and saw espe shaking his head which I tot he was disappointed in me? And saw Mr M enjoying our set…and so i was confused on stage. But all I know I SMILE. muekekekekekeke. Saw those familiar faces but then..what da heck. hahahaha.

COme results, I was outside. Yes. *sigh* But i heard all the nominess and most was given to WDS. But when SSR won awok2 erbaik..I was clapping alone outside. What da heck! and they said….Kumpulan yang 3….BALQIS. I was like…haiyah no chan nochan la. then I went forward standing behind the tall crowd…. The host was saying when he mention the 2 grups pls proceed up to stage….And i heard.." SSR…WDS!" hahaha. I squeezed my way thru and i hugged Rin….and we won 2nd…..

Its unexpected ar….Rezeki. yang penting IKHLAS. Thanks again. I know I said many thanks already. But again I wanna say thanks especially to CT BUGS who actually bring up tis project with hubby, our shifu also, Mr M and gals from adiratna. Terima kasih la banyak2. tanpa korang nyer guidance I think SSR wouldnt be getting the award. And of coz to Kak cik for her natural talent of singing n ubah lagu. GALS THANK U SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!

Coming to June….So fast so fast.

work: our counter has been given the new look. Definitely bigger than the old counter. More Classier. A good new chair. And new PC. So gettin use to the new counter. difference is I prefer standing up than sitting down. GSS has started and for the next 3 weeks is gonna be bz bz bz bz.

Family: It was fun going to Nilai that day. We set off at 6am. I dunno why it seems that BIL has reached Ayer Keroh in 2 hrs. I remembered dozing off awhile and when I woke up we oredi at Ayer Keroh. Fast wasnt it? And then BIL got the wrong directions and we ended up at KLIA. hahaha. At last I can see how KLIA looks like. Kinda quite and not that big though. After that finally meet Abah, Mak, neli, Zul & his bro. Neli was down with chicken pox. I laughed at her. Coz she was the one who told me to buzz off to my sis’s place if I kena the chicken poxy. haha. Then we went off to Dengkil to have SATAY!!!! then off to Nilai where my MOM gone berserked! We went to look around for the accesories for my wedding. Sis told Mom its too early to buy since its next year. Mom quite unhappy but we just ignored her. hahahaha. Due to her ‘unlimited’ time for shop, everyone else cant stand the heat over there. So we made our way at about 4pm…. I actually got a few ideas on how to decorate my room. Saw a few curtain cloths in pink color. woohooo. Hopefully when Im getting it, they should be there. And we bought 1 set of bunga paha only just to satisfy my mom. hee!

Me: I finally has settled with my cameraman. Puuuhh! Paid deposit and just wait for the day. hiak hiak hiak! For now, I can rest my mind. No planning or preparations in the brain for now. Yesterday, BIL bought a jersey for me. And which club? LIVERPOOL. hahahaha. I have been a MAN U fan. but not that avid la. My dad, Mushi, BIL, Neli & boyfie are  MAN U fans. BIL says i must support fiance, so he bought the white jersey for me. hahahahaha. Thank u lah!!!

Oh yah….Rin, Lin good luck ar korang. Hidup DK!!!! Aku support korang dari bawah je lah eh!!! hahahaha. Aku nak turun tengok korang ar….walaupun ada yang tak ingin ku lihat kan….paham paham je la……

Adios

It seems that a few things are happening this May. Bz Bz May. Muekekeke. Now I can sighed in relief. Coz I have done the most important thing for THE event. Thank God, everything went smoothly. Me n fiance have decided on the plan and hopefully it works wonders on that day. Went to ‘her’ place and knocked excitedly on the door. No reply. Called and ’she’ said Im right here at the door. So I tot ’she’ was doing something and ’she’ called. I was laughing n embarassed and told fiance, we knocked on the wrong door. Its actually a floor down. Told ‘her’ u emailed me stating this floor. And ’she’ laughed and said she must hav hav forgotten again. Fiance and I talked & laughed with ‘her’. Another an hour an a half, we were done!  So another less worry to think about.

10May: Meeting with cuzzie with sis for a secret meeting. *sigh* I hope with this meeting I can get things settled and hope everything goes well.

11May: Insyallah meet the gerlfrens.

15May: Will be bz at work due to expansion of our counter. Wonder how it gonna turns out.

18May: GOing Nilai!!! Hahaha. Cant join my mom n sister to a trip to KL but then, on this day, me, kakak, abg achid, dina n musheer will meet my parents, neli and zul there!!! Yeyey!!! Family outing cum shopping cum look2 see2.

22May: Another appointment for another important thing for THE event. Hope goes well too.

That’s about all…….cant wait to meet gf, cant wait for trip to Nilai. InsyAllah.

Its May already. 7 more mths to Dec and 8 more mths to 2009. I wrote about chicken pox on my previous blog. And I can feel Im going to be the next victim of it. I had fever for past 3 days and yesterday I was on MC. I cant take the heat no more. ANd now I feel so pricky all over my body. Arrrghhh!!! 1st my nephew had c.pox. A week later my eldest niece…then a week later my youngest niece was hospitalised for 3 days and the next 4 days she had c.pox! Her face and body was covered with all the poxies! pity her! And then yesterday my eldest sister, the mama of the babies had c.pox! What a virus! Even if I had to get it, please please poxy, come after Monday ok? I got a very important appointment on Monday.

The fever came I guess after I attended and was the bridesmaid of my best fren last SUnday It was terribly HOT ok. But I just try to be ‘cool’ but I guess not strong enuff. Imagine 12 midnite, it was damn hot! Im glad the wedding came out well. Love the food. She took decorama for her wedding. And SUPERB!! Simply lurve the pastries…but then it has its own cost. I met my long lost secondary school frens and my ex colleague from M1. So heppy to see them. After the wedding ended, the newly weds actually went out for a short early supper at MAcdonalds West Coast. hahaaaha. Guess right now they oredi at Langkawi. weee!!! Congratulations again my Dearest Dahlina.

Right now, my body keeps perspiring and I have trouble sleeping. Damn hot. Cant tahan leh!!! Aiyoyoyoy. I dun feel like working. Can i take MC again? arrghhh!

I am looking forward to Monday. Hehehe! Well, I need to rush to make decisions for the 3 most important things for next year event. Actually, 1 has been confirmed. So now left 2. and the rest of the thingy I seriusly dunno where to start with. I know there’s lotsa details to look into but I have no idea when, where,how and what. Its ok. from now, I have like 7 months to plan before it can be activated. And luckily my fiance has agreed to paint our room! mueheheh. Thank you sweetheart!!

K time to cool down. Seriusly…I CANT TAK THE HEAT. Lucky addy came home from KL. =) Sorry Daddy, no mood to go out and the heat takle tahan!!! Gosh!

Take care!!!

Harlow bloggie. Long long time no write in here. Kwang3x. As usual time ticks so fast. Its 15 April 08. And i guess its the peak period of being sick. Rin’s down wif fever and followed by chicken Pox. My nephew had fever too last 2 weeks and now he’s down with Chicken Pox too. And my youngest niece is having fever. Went to NUH last night and had bullet in her cute ass! hehehee. Hopefully she’s not infected by the POXY. And me? I have yet to get it. Not even when Im small. The funny thing is I started to feel the itch…and its like im feeling itchy all over. Kakak said its all in the mind. That night after werk, I bathe and I spread the cooling powder all over my body. Then Zzzzzzz. The next day, no itchy. hahahaha. Its all in the mind yeah.

Dad told me he’s not going to renew his contract. I was very happy. Coz I will get to see him everyday starting 1st Jan 2009. But I can see the sadness in his eyes. And I know why. He must be thinking of the bills. He asked me if there’s any suitable job for him. I told him we can go to any CDCs to ask around. InsyAllah there’s one for him. He sure to have lotsa valuable experiences working in the printing line for years. I know I have to chip in some money to pay for house as well. Im trying my best….  I hope I can do it.

Somethings happened and I guess my head could not take it anymore. I have a very bad bad headache and was on MC last Saturday. But Im glad its over and Im taking it slow. This is LIFE. No one is perfect and no one is free from problems. We cant always expect things to go easy all the time right? Planning is another thing. Its true sumtimes. Its getting bored discussing it almost everyday. So I try to loosen up a little and not tok about it as much. Just settle with the important ones 1st.

Price for rice is increasing. I dunno wats the world going into. Are we reaching the end of the world? Sheeshh… Wonder how the future is gonna be. 1st thing on my mind was MONEY. Now I just find it hard to spend like before. Each time I will ask, if its necessary? I dont mind skipping this just so that I can save up. My pay is not as high as I should be getting. So I have to work hard in my savings department. Im lucky that I have uniform. So I will not think of what to wear to work or vice versa.

Now Im hungry…. seriusly hungry. I just ate 3pieces of biscuits. And my lunch will be at 2.30pm. What shall I eat? Hmmmm……

Yesh Smallie, The B has arrived. hahahaha… and more than half is gone. Mostly to the other bank. Alhamdullilah! Really contented coz I managed to give eberyone in my family a lil each. Mugagagagaga. So now have to wait for the BIG open table. I managed to pamper myself with many things but not very ex but moderate. Thanks to AIZA…..for buying for me the pair of BIRKIES. hehehe. I like it bewy much coz its pinky!!!! And beb, CONGRATULATIONS…. your day has finally come. After so much, alhamdullilah dreams indeed come true. *imbasbalik* *smiles*

Back to the B. Im very happy actually but then I dunno what’s gonna happen next year. I think we wont be getting much next year as the US market is not doing well. But hope CL is making $$$ in other areas. And now im just waiting for the letter. Just wanna c if I have an increment this year. Dad says to stick to this job. And so does my mgr and my gm. Ai ai captain. Am looking forward also to the new extension of our mall. Habisla aku kalau good shops are coming in here. hari2 la aku shopping kan. Mata shopping kaki shopping tangan shopping….. *LOL* And right now Im trying hard to maintain that 4 figure in my acct. yes 4 figure. hmm…wanna see how long i can hold that figure.

oh yeah I cut my hair twice this month. yes. Dats me. If the 1st cut is not to my liking…I go for the 2nd cut. And so far this is my 2nd time. hee! The 1st one I went to the salon my small sis recommend. OKla nice. Of coz la after the blowing n styling. He cut layered and left like so little of my hair and maintain the length. K fine. but after that, RIMAS!!!!!! I dunlike the fine hair sticking on my shoulder and that I would feel grouchy. So yesterday, I was like KLAH go n cut hair again. try to go my neighbourhood salon but then they dun accept NETS. So, i dragged my sis along and my niece, since she drives. We decided to go JRG WEST. She drove along Taman Jurong and I say why not we go BOON LAY. When we reached there, we immediately go to the small shop but looks very professional. Lucky I got there 3 mins before they closed shop. So I said I wanna cut short. Just short. She asked why I dun wanna keep long hair….I say hot hot. Cannot stand la. kwrhkerhek. So she cut tat bob style and suggested rebonding to make it look even better. Cost: $120++ Duration: 2hrs ++ Hmm….I said I will think about it. So she snipped, snipped. And 20 mins its done. She also recommended me hair tonic coz I guess she saw a small part on top of my hair going a bit bald. *sigh* And some oil so that my hair will not be that frizzy. Bought it. hahaha. So that’s my pamper treats. I guess Im sticking to that salon la. my cut is only $15 bux. And of coz w.o washing.

My small sis went to the IT fair and this morning I saw a few things she bought. Yelah org ada laptop, semua nak beli kan. When will she ever think of saving? I knew yesternite, she went into my room and switch on my modem. And this morning, the modem is still on!!!! Cakap nanti marah. *sigh* Tot of buying a new PC but then when comes to think of it, I dun use PC that much except for playing games and watching Malay telemovies on YouTube. Dad is not always using. So no point kan? Why buang duit? Talking about Dad, he mentions if he can sign another 2 years of contract. I said no. But kakak did say he wants to. Due to some reasons which I really am sad about it. I have regretted not really being a good daughter while in my teens. Spend my time outside, clubs. And I tot now before I belong to someone, I can spend time with him. As in everyday knowing that when I come back from work, he will be there every night. I wonder what his decision gonna be. But of course, I wouldnt wanna him to work KL again.

Work. Gosh!!! I am happy being here but then…since the newbie joins in here, its like so frustrating. Dah lah ko PR, bangsa fee-lee-peen(bukan semua fee-lee-peen) nak tunjuk lagak. Fine la kalau kau nak membodek. Pasal aku tak membodek. Aku tau nak buat keje aku. AKu respect senior. Aku tak eksyen pandai. Tak tahu aku tanya. Aku tak mengamuk tunjuk perasaan depan customer. MACAM kau. Tak leh tengok orang senang. Seriusly I cant stand her. She is very bossy towards our new gal. Bila buat salah tahu tegur. Bila aku tegur ko tak terima. Bila customer bertimbun2 ko nak tunjuk ko nyer marah. Ko saper siak?!?!?!? Bloody s! Yesterday I hurt my leg becoz I trippped over that stupid box which she placed it on the floor. And she never said SORRY. I know im clumsy coz I didnt see that bloody darn thing on the floor, but since it was you who placed that bloody darn thing, at least say SORRY. Nie mengamuk dgn aku! Ada patut tak???? Baru masuk nak eksyen terror. Nak jadi mcm boss. pegi dah!!! U bloody swine!!!!! Geramnyer aku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I stop here… muekekekek. Till then take care.

Ola Ola! I know I kept saying about time. I cant help it. Its just what I am feeling most of the time. At werk, I will be looking at my roster constantly. Knowing what dramas I can watch on TV……. or when will be my next date be or when I can catch up with my dearest girlies, whom I often meet is Rin. Heehee!

Girlies, I know we aint meeting that much but i am here trying to catch up with u but then not all of you though. I rather not plan then ended up not able to make it. I rather be a pop-up and at least I dont feel so bad about not able to meet as plan.

Rin, Im sorry Im unable to join you for KL. U know my reasons. But i hope u do enjoy it with ya dearest HighRule, Ros & Hubby. See if KL has some changes. heheh! I guess u r much betta now after what happened this week. And yeah dun stress yaself so much about that makcik!

Now Im counting down to get my B. The dearest B. Oh B,thank you for coming. U meant so much B. There’s so many things I wanna do with B. SHopping, Saving, bills etc etc. Pls come very soon B….. By then its already coming to March. See what I mean. Just felt that it was new year, then chinese new year…now its already MARCH!!!!

Its February 2008. CNY is already over. And it also means the super LONG q  is finally over. Kinda miss the busiest, hectic work. And back to the normal super slow work. During that busiest time, I was contemplating to call it quits. Even before appraisal was done. I guess I have enough of all these super demanding & unreasonable customers. Its really getting on me. But when I sit down n think about my future, I decided to still stay. Its isnt dat bad. Its just Singaporeans who r getting more rude & more ‘arrogant’. Thinking about the Big BONUS and the benefits…….I stay. For the appraisal, I did good. Im proved by a + only. And the reason why i have increase by a + only is because I applied leave…. Last minute leave?? Isnt leave our entitlement? I mean if u r blaming it on MC, i can accept it but leave??????? Gosh. What kinda reason is that ???? Everything is properly managed at work although I took leave. U said I am being patient with customers…and all…but why the reason ANNUAL LEAVE? *sigh* A big disappointment. But its ok. So this year Im taking LESSER leave and see if next year u gonna say its LEAVE again. But sorry hor. next year after the appraisal, im taking a very LONG leave. hahaha. So i guess its a good time now to save my leaves for next year. I dont care lor!!!!

I dunno how many time I have said this but Im still gonna say this again. TIME FLIES SO VERY FAST…….. Im cant believe I am going thru the next phase in life. Now I need to search for lotsa things for the ultimate day. InsyAllah in April or May, Naz’s parents are coming over to inform the date. He only tell me the 2 dates which are suitable for our occasion but then he refused to tell me the exact date. Kononnya surprise…..kerhkehrkrhker.

And coz of that, sumtime I feel that I am VERY FAT. I mean I am fat but i will feel extremely FAT. I feel very conscious in what I wear. Serba Serbi tak kena la. Told myself to jog once this CNY is over. but till now, I havent try to jog. Whenever I ask any queries from any bridal, 1st qtn will be if they have my size. Mengarutkan! Dunnola how to explain. *sigh*

and coz of that too, sumtimes I feel Im not earning much. I just feel that I dont deserve this kinda pay. I felt that I ought to be paid better. Work in a much betta paying company. But then, I cant deny the fact that I cant really handle that amount of stress. Just couldnt. *sigh* And to hear, see the news of high cost of living just scares me. Really.  And then so many things will come to my mind….. I will just shut myself off! Scary la….scary……

I dunno how my future will be. I dont wanna expect. Coz I know I will be disappointed if any of it fails. Come to think of it, I wish I can go back to the past. Amend things here n there. Listen to elders. *sigh*

Shucks!!! K….im shutting myself again.